you would think that with no superior person around me, i woudl take a davantage but i think that i am finally growing into my ways of beign an adult because unlike unleashing the devil inside of me and partying and going out and etc.. ive literally spent my entire two weeks.. in a house.. studying non stop and doing nerdy little things. it suprises me that entertainment no longer entices me and that beign socially neglected is utterly self satisfying. i guess it depends on the company that comes along also but nonetheless its a good time. its nice to know that with my family thousand miles away.. they dotn have to worry about lil ol' me. im taking care of myslef and being taken care of. its a nice peaceful atmosphere i have going on i must admit!

cant wait for the justin timberlake concert!!!!! =)

awwh i dont come on xanga anymore.. and i know some pppl dont either.. but oh well..

WHATS NEW?!!!!?!??!

nothing. we are moving out of our house into a apartment tomorrow. thats a total of 4 places im stayign at. lol.. well 5.. My moms house in missourri, my house ( currrently in the process of beign sold ), bens house, the house, and the new apartment. tooo bad i only stay at bens house most of the time bc i hate being alone.. and even when i am with him.. we dotn hang out. he jsut goes out and does stuff ad get home at like 2-3.. and i study at his hosue and wait for him. thats married life for you. lol. other than that.. school has been ok.. i really want to get it over with.!!! so  i went to the dermatologist lately bc i been getting laser skin treatment, BTW WHAT A WASTE OF MONEY haha... but no so man the dermatologist spent liek 5 minutes on me.. ( what an observance)... so i shoudl become a dermatologist bc i spent like 85 bucks on a visit or so... he jus tmade 85 dollars in 5 minutes. lol.. and he owns that skin clinic.. if ure wondering its called .. Ferrera Dermatolgy clinic and skin and laser center of Grosse POinte. .. im gonna becopme a dermatologist.. according to me and ben.. i only want to be that so i can find out whats wring with me. haha. loser.

btw: NEW ARTIST: GEORE NOZUKA! hes sooo HOTT.. lol. hes on my myspace friendlist. if u want to know. lol...

DEVIL BESIDE YOU

i jsut got done watchin this series. it is sooo incredibly cute... if u know me im a big "drama" series fan.. especially when the guy is cute and has the personality of mystery.. it makes me so incredibly infatuated... and a lil bit on the loving side haha.. i swear i get soo emotional it makes me love my boyfriend a lil bit more... but it can also make me hate him bc i want him to bel ike thast hahhahahHHAahaha..


+ happy 11 months last night
+ and a thumbs up for many many many more...
+ im very bitter but im very loving.